{"id":15626,"date":"2023-07-30T16:09:14","date_gmt":"2023-07-30T15:09:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.co.uk\/?p=15626"},"modified":"2023-07-30T18:10:29","modified_gmt":"2023-07-30T17:10:29","slug":"notes-on-my-suicide","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/2023\/07\/30\/notes-on-my-suicide\/","title":{"rendered":"Notes on my Suicide"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">One of the great things about committing suicide <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Are the endless choices one has at their disposal <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pills guns bridges trains sharp knives and so much more  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">After a close consideration I chose a local cliff<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It is in an area of outstanding natural beauty <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Which would ensure that my last seconds<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Before the searing pain <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> Would be so so beautiful <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I would die or drown in a totality of calmness<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But as normal I fucked it up and find myself <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">In a wheelchair smashed to pieces <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I am totally dependent on the nurses <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">To feed me to wipe my shitty arse <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And to give me a hand job if I ask nicely <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">There are other dribblers like me <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Dying slowly in the dark corners <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Of this bland recreation room <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As I watch them needlessly suffer <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I think of a play by Jean Paul Sartre <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>One of the great things about committing suicide Are the endless choices one has at their disposal Pills guns bridges trains sharp knives and so much more After a close consideration I chose a local cliff It is in an area of outstanding natural beauty Which would ensure that my last seconds Before the searing [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15626","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15626","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15626"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15626\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15631,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15626\/revisions\/15631"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15626"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15626"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15626"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}