Thursday 12th September <\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I am honest with myself <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I suppose that I am looking for a father figure<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On the outside I am a confident girl <\/p>\n\n\n\n
A girl with all the gifts <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am a good looking girl<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am a golden cornfield <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have a good degree <\/p>\n\n\n\n
If there is such thing as a good degree <\/p>\n\n\n\n
My parents always called me the favoured one <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As everything came so easily to me <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I knew that I was brittle <\/p>\n\n\n\n
That is why I was remote <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Which turned off so many who met me <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Most guys wanted to possess me <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As I frightened them <\/p>\n\n\n\n
That is not my idea of a relationship <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Although secretly I do want to be possessed <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Red Blue Red Blue Red Blue <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have always been attracted to Joe <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As he is a force of nature but fragile <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As he knew that one day Josie <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Would walk out of the garden door <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Into the pastoral bliss she desired <\/p>\n\n\n\n
When she became unwell <\/p>\n\n\n\n
He realised that she was trapped in paradise <\/p>\n\n\n\n
They were joined not only by their beauty <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But by their alarming similarities <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The break up is tearing Joe apart <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yet he wants Josie to be happy <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And knows that he owns the key <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Joe although abrasive is the kindest guy I know <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Even though he is ten years my senior <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I feel as Josie does that we were born on the same day <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Josie and Cora will start their own lives together <\/p>\n\n\n\n
They are so matched for each other <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And brutally Joe will return to the islands of his past <\/p>\n\n\n\n
He has many people who admire him (many of them girls) <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know that I may have to work fast (that sounds so trite)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He has always said that he thought I was very attractive <\/p>\n\n\n\n
This flattered me I wanted to be flattered <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But he often says that to girls he finds attractive <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I just did not want to end up as one of his friends <\/p>\n\n\n\n
A dear friend a girl he taught to swim a friend of my family <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But I am not sure what he thinks of me <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am I intelligent enough for him <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Do I really understand him <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Does he understand his own feelings <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want him to influence me in a creative sense <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I want to be creative in my own specialised field <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Be it poetry (doubtful) art (more likely) or something else <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Having Josie as a dear friend is like having a sister <\/p>\n\n\n\n
She is very like me although I am not a gay girl <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Last week when Joe was in town <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had lunch with Josie <\/p>\n\n\n\n
She is more or less repaired <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But is full of guilt <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As she knows that Joe is hurting <\/p>\n\n\n\n
This guilt does not do her mental state any favours <\/p>\n\n\n\n
She scribbled something on a napkin <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And passed it to me at the railway station <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Look after him just look after him <\/p>\n\n\n\n
That was all just seven words <\/p>\n\n\n\n
As the train left I saw Josie walking down the platform <\/p>\n\n\n\n
She was almost skipping as she faded from view <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I knew things were changing obviously they were <\/p>\n\n\n\n
But was I a part of this change or just a mere spectator <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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