{"id":35132,"date":"2026-07-22T21:03:14","date_gmt":"2026-07-22T20:03:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/?p=35132"},"modified":"2026-07-22T21:20:19","modified_gmt":"2026-07-22T20:20:19","slug":"the-male-gaze-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/2026\/07\/22\/the-male-gaze-3\/","title":{"rendered":"The Male Gaze"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Earlier this year I was laid low by a virus&nbsp; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Which left me bedridden and totally spaced&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As I had just moved into this lonely city&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I knew nobody and nobody&nbsp;knew me&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jane&nbsp;Mac Brown was totally&nbsp;alone&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The only person I had met was Mark&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Who lived on the floor&nbsp;below me&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He worked in fashion or something&nbsp;similar<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">To be truthful I thought he was a faggot&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But I need to somebody to keep an eye on me&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It did not help that I threw up in front of his flat&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And more or less fainted into the mess&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But that did not faze him in the least&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And he looked after me for the rest of the week&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mark was always there ensuring that I was okay&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He obviously saw me at my very worst shitting pissing sicking\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I went to bed in my blue tee shirt and woke up in his pajamas&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">That was how caring he was during these awful days&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And then it ended I returned&nbsp;to my reality and Mark faded&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He was as I guessed a faggot who was married to Gordon&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">They both became my friends but I never felt naked in front of them&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Even though they would have seen me at my very worst&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Indeed deep down in my fucked up brain I rather enjoyed the idea&nbsp;&nbsp;<br><br><br><br>Jane&nbsp;Mac Brown<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Earlier this year I was laid low by a virus&nbsp; Which left me bedridden and totally spaced&nbsp; As I had just moved into this lonely city&nbsp; I knew nobody and nobody&nbsp;knew me&nbsp; Jane&nbsp;Mac Brown was totally&nbsp;alone&nbsp; The only person I had met was Mark&nbsp; Who lived on the floor&nbsp;below me&nbsp; He worked in fashion or [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-35132","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35132","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=35132"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35132\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":35137,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35132\/revisions\/35137"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=35132"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=35132"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/stuartmillerosborne.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=35132"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}